God Knows What’s Best

I’ve been a little chaotic the past few weeks adjusting after Joshua’s surgery. The flow is different and I’ve had to do more than I used to, but God has been using this opportunity to remind me to use my planner.

When I have a long to-do list of things I really want to get done but haven’t planned out how or if any needs to be pushed to a different day, I get overwhelmed and try to do them all. Then I want to quit when I realize each thing took longer than I was hoping they would in my head. That’s how I’d been living the past, maybe, couple months - or at least weeks - before Joshua’s surgery, thinking I had a decent handle on my schedule that I no longer needed to plan. Boy, was I wrong. 

I keep going through this cycle of planning for a few weeks and then quitting when I think about how much time it takes to plan and I convince myself I can just keep track in my head. I never do well at keeping track in my head. I either forget things or assume something that takes 30 minutes really will just take 5 minutes. And it’s not until I break down to God and let him know I’m overwhelmed that He reminds me to whip out my planner and get to planning that I actually go back to it and feel so much better.

My good friend gave me a planner for this year. She decorated it and made it look so pretty, like a prize I get to walk around with. She felt like God told her to get it for me, so she did, and I’m so grateful. I see God was right, and He knew before I did how much I needed it.

How many times have you stopped doing what God told you was good for you because you thought you could handle it? Is God calling you back to it like He is me? Whether it’s letting go of planning your days or getting rid of boundaries with your boyfriend, going back to God to get the reminders that we need can be a crucial part of our mental and emotional health as well as success in life. So though I recognize my weakness of this cycle and want to stop doing the same thing of quitting and going back to it over and over, I’m grateful to have a God who always invites me back to Him and reminds me what’s important and what’s good for me. Please know that you have the same God too. He’s calling you back. Can you hear Him? 

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