Coty Terry

My husband had surgery last week. He tore his Achilles tendon - well, technically, the surgeon said it ruptured - so he had to get surgery to stitch the tendon back together. I thought it wouldn’t be a huge deal. Yeah, I had to do the dishes now that he had to rest his leg instead of just cooking, but I didn’t think much would change for me. Oh, and drive him to work and pick him up, but we got used to that when we only had one car just a few months ago. (I did feel bad for him. He was finally enjoying playing basketball after years of missing it, and then this happened.) But what I didn’t expect was the worry that would set in, the pressures, the stress, the overwhelm. His surgery awakened some deep feelings in me that I didn’t realize were still rooted. We also had to stay with his parents after surgery because we don’t have a bathroom on the first floor and Joshua couldn’t yet walk up stairs, and that revealed some more deep feelings.  God’s been using this past week to help me ...

It’s funny, really, how we can look at life sometimes, wanting the picture perfect, the easy peezy, and being upset when we don’t get it, even though Jesus, though promising abundant life, said to expect suffering.  I used to think that life was just about reaching the standard of having everything I wanted, marriage, a family, friends, peace, joy, money, financial stability, a house, etc. That’s what I work for. That’s what I pray for. That’s what I expect. But that isn’t what life’s about at all, is it?  “ For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.” - Matthew 16:25 Maybe life is about losing it to find it. Am I ready to lose my life, that idea of a perfect life, of joy and peace all the time, of no financial hardships, easy marriage, good and well-behaved kids, for Jesus’ sake, whatever it looks like, persecution or not? I’m willing, definitely willing, but I need the Lord’s help to do it.  It’s funny, really,...

How do you live in the now when you want to be in the future?  How do you be content in the now when the hope you have shows the future as better than the now?  How do you see the good in the struggle and, maybe even, not see it as a struggle at all?  How did Jesus have joy when He was trying to have alone time but multitudes followed Him anyway, or when He was beat and abandoned, mocked? These are the questions I’ve been wondering, because God has showed my husband and me a pretty awesome future that I know I would enjoy, and I have hope for the career path that I truly desire, of which God has put a desire in me. But I also know He’s called me where I am right now for a reason, and I’ve been getting lost in the future, abandoning my present, forgetting the hope I once I had for where I am.  I have so many things to be grateful for that I have right now, and I don’t want to be like the Israelites who complained in the wilderness, who looked to other gods out of defe...

 It's worth it, Even when it's hard. It's worth it. Even when it's tiring. It's worth it, Even when it seems like it's not paying off. It's worth it. It's worth seeing where it goes, What the end will look like. It's worth putting in the work, Building a work ethic and consistency. It's worth obeying God, Because He can see the future And knows what's best for me.  It's worth it. I have to remember that, Keep repeating it so that I don't quit. It's almost like a mantra (if I did that sort of thing): It's worth it. He's worth it.  What's going on in your life that's making you question everything, The time you're putting in, The energy, That you know, deep down, is worth completing and not quitting? Keep repeating that it's worth it and remember the end goal. It'll all be worth it, not just in the end, but in the journey, Because in the journey is when the becoming occurs. See more here at this blog po...