Overwhelmed and Sleep-Deprived

Have you ever tried to do too many things at once?

Has it ever overwhelmed you? 

It has me.

I keep telling myself that I can do it,

I can figure out how to make it possible

To do all the things that I want to do,

That I believe I will do,

Until it becomes too much,

And I want to quit everything.

The next phase of the cycle is sadness,

When I lose hope and motivation

Because I’m no longer doing the things I love

Because I quit everything.

And then I talk to God,

Tell him what happened.

He reminds me that He is there,

That I need to go back to doing the things He’s called me to do,

That I enjoy,

And He tells me which to pick back up and which to leave out. 

But it seems like a cycle,

Because I add more things and wonder why I’m worn out,

Or I stop using my planner and precious time gets wasted

That would have allowed me to go to bed on time.

What’s difficult is when I don’t know what I’ve added

To cause such a ruffle in my life,

To cause the stress or late nights.

What’s difficult is I wonder why I need to use my planner

When I’m doing the same things each week,

A routine of days, 

That helps me do all the things.

What went wrong

Since my talk with God?

How did things get out of hand again?

These are the things I question and ponder

And wonder if I’m doing everything wrong 

Or if this is how life is supposed to be. 

I guess it’s time for me to talk to God again

And lay it all out at His feet, 

Let Him remind me what’s important, 

What to continue

And what to drop. 

I think I’m nervous,

Because I don’t want to drop anything.

But thank You, Lord, for reminding me

That You know best.

Here I am.

Tell me what to do.